"There’s nothing inspiring about this town."
The two of them sit on a bench in the waterfront. He looks at her face. She’s looking straight at the streetlamps that line the watervillage. He feels helpless and looks down at his palms, thinking of holding hers. Just thinking.
"I miss London."
A boat passes by, riding the waves. The sound of the engine can be heard as it disappears into the distance. The sky is clear, no stars, just blank space. He checks his phone and opens a message from his mom saying “don’t come back too late”. The time on his phone is 11.43pm. He puts his phone back in his pocket.
"Sometimes I guess. I went back there last year, it just wasn’t the same."
"Well, I just want to get out of here."
"And go back to London?"
"Maybe, or maybe another city, like Tokyo or something."
"You don’t even speak the language."
"I can learn."
He stands up and leans onto the rails of the waterfront. He looks at the debris of styrofoam containers, plastics and random garbage floating on the water’s surface.
"What are you looking at?"
She stands up and leans next to him. He glances at her as she looks toward the watervillage. Both their hands on the rails.
"Do you think the people there want to get out of here too?"
"Maybe if they’re unhappy I guess.."
We are slowly beginning to realise
We are not the future
We just laid there and watched the afternoon fade away from the window. The room kept turning into darker shades of blue and we stayed quiet for awhile. There’s the sound of you breathing and I think I could hear my heart beating but I’m not sure if it’s just in my head or if you could actually hear it too. I tried to turn it down by breathing slower but it made my breathing heavier which in turn made it louder. Eventually we fell asleep and by the time we woke up, we were late to meet a few friends out for dinner. Part of me just wanted to stay here, but most of me was really hungry. You’re floating in space with your hair down and your glasses on, looking like the best thing I’ve ever seen and there’s just no way to stop this comet of a heart from hurling into you at unprecedented speeds. When we arrived for dinner half an hour later, our friend introduced us to two of his friends, one of them is visiting from another country and is set to get married here. This new person started talking about this armour that could protect your hands from getting cut in certain situations and all this other technical stuff, he talked with so much enthusiasm. We ordered our food and everything went by pretty fast. I can’t tell if it was real or not. An image of the afternoon fading away from the window is stuck in my head. It looks perfect. And so are you.
at the end of the day, i just want people to stop stealing things
at the end of the day i just want to wake up on the beach with you
when i woke up the next day it was 1 oclock in the afternoon and it was still dark outside so i stayed in bed a little longer and checked my phone to a few messages but none from you so i got up and looked out the window and realised it was actually 1 oclock in the morning. I slept the whole day and i didn’t know how it happened but it left me feeling a bit disorientated so i got out of my room and went to the bathroom to wash my face. then i went downstairs because i was hungry, my eyes were still adjusting and my feet felt slightly off balance and when i got to the kitchen, i was outside for some reason.
when we arrived in that island town you looked like you left something and i asked what’s wrong but you said everything was fine but you weren’t fine you just pretended to be so i asked you again and you said nothing so i dropped the whole issue altogether eventhough i knew something was wrong but i just didn’t want to make a big deal out of it, i thought just let it be and everything will be ok but when people go quiet there’s always a reason behind it either they’re thinking about something really really hard or just trying to avoid thinking about something altogether so in the car it was quiet so quiet i can hear the sound of my own thoughts telling me that maybe we should just jump out of the car while it’s still speeding but i thought better of it and just decided to drive on with my mouth shut and my eyes straight focused on the road
when we landed on the beach i realised the water was the same kind of blue and it was the same kind of sand. we sat there and waited for the sun to set while the sandflies harassed my bare feet. the sunset was the same as any other sunset i’ve witnessed countless times before this. then you tell me how nice this was and it felt like i’ve heard that before but i can’t remember where exactly. when it went dark we walked a few steps out to the carpark and we sat in my car for a bit, carrying sand on the car mat. this all went by pretty fast and the colour of the day dissappeared and we just let time take it’s way as we drove down the highway back to your house where i’d drop you off.